Ah gosh! I'm so heavenly tired right now. Today I've been hanging out with Yonas in this country's second largest city. I left my town straight after work this morning at 8:35. I came home about 22:55. I'm really tired, but I thoroughly enjoyed the day. I've missed my precious friend. He treated me to some vegetarian maki he and his room-mate had made the other day. It was truly delicious, even though I don't like wasabi, it was really tasty to that. Felt very healthy compared to my normal foods.
We also hung out with a friend of Yonas' most of the day, and by late afternoon, I met Yonas' boyfriend Dennis. A pretty famous blogger. He's very sweet and I can see why many would like him. But I can't help but wonder why on earth anyone that'd met him would think he's straight. Maybe it's just that I - as a bisexual - just have a gaydar.
I photographed some today. I'd say pretty much all of the pictures turned out bad in my critical eyes, but I had fun anyway. Sadly I just discovered that my computer doesn't support SDHC-cards. Very crappy, so I'll show you some pics tomorrow.
"El mundo es un pañuelo"
Literally it means "the world is a handkerchief" but it's the Spanish proverb for English's "it's a small world". It's the phrase I remember the most clearly from my Spanish classes in ninth grade. I've been saying it several times today, and to prove it's true, I met gholen who lives in the same city as me at one of the town squares, and then when I was going home, I met him on the train as well. We did not talk to each other at all about the arrangement or the travelling there/home. What are the odds? We had some "Marängswiss" at Mc Donnald's while waiting for the bus home and I thought it was kinda nice. I could have cheezburger. Nom nom nom.
Also, the pic I made for my desktop about Likström.se was requested to be used as a flyer for the site and in a different resolution for use as a desktop image. I am flattered.
I'll never be a best friend, but I'll be the one who's always there, even when everyone else fails you. - Today's thoughts.
Now I'm off to bed. Let's see how long I hallucinate before I fall asleep tonight.
G'night.
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Tuesday, June 15
Wednesday, June 2
Food, training and webdesign
My relation with food really isn't very good. I either over eat or eat way too little. I also exercise way too little, so now that I'm struggling to put on weight, I'm just gaining water and fat weight because my muscle still stay dormant. That is not good. I'll just become too heavy for my strength which will lead to a bigger inability to move and which will make me gain more fat... and so on until I'm an overweight fat blob. I want to gain weight in muscles, mainly and namely on my tummy, back and arms. The legs gain muscle the easiest of all my body, mostly because that's the only body part I use regularly.
My arms actually looks a little bigger nowadays, I've been carrying home more shopping bags. But stretching is my main target right now. I'm blushing just thinking about how stiff I am. I can spread my legs quite well, but that's pretty much it.
Today I've begun counting calories, and thought about maybe I should make a website about all my food issues, to keep everything in one place. Also it's a good way of training on making websites. Practising webdesign, yay!
My arms actually looks a little bigger nowadays, I've been carrying home more shopping bags. But stretching is my main target right now. I'm blushing just thinking about how stiff I am. I can spread my legs quite well, but that's pretty much it.
Today I've begun counting calories, and thought about maybe I should make a website about all my food issues, to keep everything in one place. Also it's a good way of training on making websites. Practising webdesign, yay!
Monday, May 31
Facelift?
Well.. Today this blog got a little facelift. I went from green to blue, oh mai!
Abstract art to pixel art.
Today's been a good and a bad day. Mostly good though. I got money for this month, I found the ink pens I've been looking to buy for years in the down town book store. Melons are on sale this week and Hanna gave me her old phone, so now I won't have to bother with my old battery-dying phone.
I went to a manifestation to support the dead and hurt people of "Ship to Gaza", and I guess it was nice, considering the circumstances. Afterwards, me and gholen went to a place called "the brewery" which is a youth hangout. We talked a little with the ones working there, listened to/watched the news and then we decided to get ourselves home.
And once home I've been making the pixel art. I started on it saturday before father came to pick me up. Took longer than I thought.
Now I'm off to bed.
G'night.
Abstract art to pixel art.
Today's been a good and a bad day. Mostly good though. I got money for this month, I found the ink pens I've been looking to buy for years in the down town book store. Melons are on sale this week and Hanna gave me her old phone, so now I won't have to bother with my old battery-dying phone.
I went to a manifestation to support the dead and hurt people of "Ship to Gaza", and I guess it was nice, considering the circumstances. Afterwards, me and gholen went to a place called "the brewery" which is a youth hangout. We talked a little with the ones working there, listened to/watched the news and then we decided to get ourselves home.
And once home I've been making the pixel art. I started on it saturday before father came to pick me up. Took longer than I thought.
Now I'm off to bed.
G'night.
Tuesday, December 29
Survived christmas
Wow I thought I definitely did an entry around Christmas. Not that it matters but meh. I'd like to think someone reads this every now and then.
I haven't been drawing lately, which is understandable since I haven't been home, so there's not that much new to post here. And it always feel so empty to not post anything here.
I should probably redesign some too. not that it matters much but it almost feels like what I have now was a hasty job. I rather make space fishes in that case. Also I think daethorian was dead on choosing only one fish for the design.
Ahhh, well. Christmas was fine. When I called my dad he was just about to call me, I think we do that a lot because sometimes when I try to call him I get the busy tone and then he calls. This time I was first though. I got some food, but after that it hasn't been much. And I'm at my limit :/ but more food awaits me over new year! as I will be at a location with a store. Whee!
My head gets dizzy when I write, so I'll end it here.
G'night
I haven't been drawing lately, which is understandable since I haven't been home, so there's not that much new to post here. And it always feel so empty to not post anything here.
I should probably redesign some too. not that it matters much but it almost feels like what I have now was a hasty job. I rather make space fishes in that case. Also I think daethorian was dead on choosing only one fish for the design.
Ahhh, well. Christmas was fine. When I called my dad he was just about to call me, I think we do that a lot because sometimes when I try to call him I get the busy tone and then he calls. This time I was first though. I got some food, but after that it hasn't been much. And I'm at my limit :/ but more food awaits me over new year! as I will be at a location with a store. Whee!
My head gets dizzy when I write, so I'll end it here.
G'night
Thursday, September 3
Forgetful Indeed
Hah, I was going to post something around 18, but I did not quite manage that, and now I am running on a new date. Fun. But oh well.
Today I have been redoing the paths onto the fishes I made for likström.se and that was more or less what made me unable top post sooner.
And so I had a very enjoyable skype conversation with daethorian, gholen and two other people, one girl that took her leave fairly early, and one guy I embarrassingly enough never caught the name of. I really like those people, and they are good people.
Today's drama though was due to a person who was very mean to me. I did not really take it to hart in the first part of the "drama" which was when the person was stupefying me and degraded me of my value to raise himself to the skies. I am kinda used to that behavior.
Then, a few days later, he put in an entry to the designer I created the fished for with a "I will give you some rough sketches of the fishes tomorrow or the day after tomorrow" in an IRC channel called #likstrom. Since he had been talking so highly and "professional" about himself, I was worried he was going to steal the space so to say, and ruin my good mood that "was able to help" and "I did something nice".
Well, at first I was just trying to tell him that my fishes already had been more or less decided upon as I already had submitted them, but as he snapped at me though I was trying (kind of desperately) to keep a positive tone and trying to spare him some work and waste of time. Then I became unsure that my fishes were good enough and that they would be cast away.
It was at that point I talked to the designer, and asked how it was "have you two decided upon his work, or is mine still having a part in it?" and I told the designer what he had told me and that I was unsure and felt confused, which I did. The designer got really upset about what he said and did to me, and told me he more or less never really wanted that guy's work in the first place. He reassured me several times and helped me regain confidence, even though I felt bad about not bringing it up with the person it was all about.
I was being very careful not to spill any misinformation or take something out of context so it would make the guy seem worse than he is and I was very careful to not do foul play as technically from his point of view we were design rivals after all. But I still feel bad about not talking to him personally.
The reasons why I did not talk to him about it is that
1. I KNOW I would put myself in a weak position and ask for forgiveness for something that was not wrong; I consulted others with my issues I could not solve alone.
2. I am actually afraid to talk to him since he without exception snaps at me like a woman with terrible PMS. And for absolutely no valid reasons. At least women with PMS have a reason.
There are more reasons, like that I am a coward because I do not want him to throw another of his fits at me though I try to be nice, but I can not put them in good ways to reflect reality.
I feel horribly about not talking to him as I am an all cards on the table kind of person. I absolutely not tried to put him in a disposition, I just wanted to know if my work and happiness was going to be thrown away as he claimed to be such a good designer/shape giver. But I am well aware of how he could mirror it whilst being angry; he could say I was manipulating daethorian and some other people to get my things through, win sympathy and crush competition that way because my pictures were not good enough to stand up against his. I can see all the mean words before me, and I have no idea how to handle them.
True I did not think my creations could stand up against his, but I never saw anything he had made, because he was really dragging his feet with this. Right before I voiced my concern, I read that the guy had been talking talking DAYS before with the designer and it sounded on him like they had an agreement, thus my increased concern and main reason to voice it.
But turns out that guy has been going on the designer's nerves for quite some time, and have not been fulfilling his duties either. And pushing me down and snapping at me was the straw that broke the camel's back. Apparently he was not able to follow the simple guidelines for the design either which was a lively 2d fish that was simple and close to the copyrighted fish they had used so far just to have something.
In a way, his failure just makes it sad that I even voiced my concern as he never really was a threat, and I feel a little like I was kicking on someone lying down without knowing it. Dragging his ass was just really unprofessional and even though he did not get payed, it took him about 8-10 days to even do something to submit, something I did on my first attempt in one night... And I am a n00b. And the ones he did submit was horribly horribly failed, if I understood it right. I am yet to see what he made.
It is sad he will be getting a reprimand and loose his position on the site (instead of gaining a title) but it was his own doings. I feel bad about not talking to him, but I feel the support from daethorian and gholen, and I believe there is nothing more I can do but to start drawing on Young's character in the comic I am hopefully going to draw, which was the initial point from the beginning.
That said, I also must confess I really like all of the management of the site Likström.se and I have a lot of trust in daethorian (as daethorian is the one I have spoken the most to) and I feel privileged to be able to talk to them all and aid them in finding site bugs and creating art for them. They are exactly what I need right now.
Over and out.
Today I have been redoing the paths onto the fishes I made for likström.se and that was more or less what made me unable top post sooner.
And so I had a very enjoyable skype conversation with daethorian, gholen and two other people, one girl that took her leave fairly early, and one guy I embarrassingly enough never caught the name of. I really like those people, and they are good people.
Today's drama though was due to a person who was very mean to me. I did not really take it to hart in the first part of the "drama" which was when the person was stupefying me and degraded me of my value to raise himself to the skies. I am kinda used to that behavior.
Then, a few days later, he put in an entry to the designer I created the fished for with a "I will give you some rough sketches of the fishes tomorrow or the day after tomorrow" in an IRC channel called #likstrom. Since he had been talking so highly and "professional" about himself, I was worried he was going to steal the space so to say, and ruin my good mood that "was able to help" and "I did something nice".
Well, at first I was just trying to tell him that my fishes already had been more or less decided upon as I already had submitted them, but as he snapped at me though I was trying (kind of desperately) to keep a positive tone and trying to spare him some work and waste of time. Then I became unsure that my fishes were good enough and that they would be cast away.
It was at that point I talked to the designer, and asked how it was "have you two decided upon his work, or is mine still having a part in it?" and I told the designer what he had told me and that I was unsure and felt confused, which I did. The designer got really upset about what he said and did to me, and told me he more or less never really wanted that guy's work in the first place. He reassured me several times and helped me regain confidence, even though I felt bad about not bringing it up with the person it was all about.
I was being very careful not to spill any misinformation or take something out of context so it would make the guy seem worse than he is and I was very careful to not do foul play as technically from his point of view we were design rivals after all. But I still feel bad about not talking to him personally.
The reasons why I did not talk to him about it is that
1. I KNOW I would put myself in a weak position and ask for forgiveness for something that was not wrong; I consulted others with my issues I could not solve alone.
2. I am actually afraid to talk to him since he without exception snaps at me like a woman with terrible PMS. And for absolutely no valid reasons. At least women with PMS have a reason.
There are more reasons, like that I am a coward because I do not want him to throw another of his fits at me though I try to be nice, but I can not put them in good ways to reflect reality.
I feel horribly about not talking to him as I am an all cards on the table kind of person. I absolutely not tried to put him in a disposition, I just wanted to know if my work and happiness was going to be thrown away as he claimed to be such a good designer/shape giver. But I am well aware of how he could mirror it whilst being angry; he could say I was manipulating daethorian and some other people to get my things through, win sympathy and crush competition that way because my pictures were not good enough to stand up against his. I can see all the mean words before me, and I have no idea how to handle them.
True I did not think my creations could stand up against his, but I never saw anything he had made, because he was really dragging his feet with this. Right before I voiced my concern, I read that the guy had been talking talking DAYS before with the designer and it sounded on him like they had an agreement, thus my increased concern and main reason to voice it.
But turns out that guy has been going on the designer's nerves for quite some time, and have not been fulfilling his duties either. And pushing me down and snapping at me was the straw that broke the camel's back. Apparently he was not able to follow the simple guidelines for the design either which was a lively 2d fish that was simple and close to the copyrighted fish they had used so far just to have something.
In a way, his failure just makes it sad that I even voiced my concern as he never really was a threat, and I feel a little like I was kicking on someone lying down without knowing it. Dragging his ass was just really unprofessional and even though he did not get payed, it took him about 8-10 days to even do something to submit, something I did on my first attempt in one night... And I am a n00b. And the ones he did submit was horribly horribly failed, if I understood it right. I am yet to see what he made.
It is sad he will be getting a reprimand and loose his position on the site (instead of gaining a title) but it was his own doings. I feel bad about not talking to him, but I feel the support from daethorian and gholen, and I believe there is nothing more I can do but to start drawing on Young's character in the comic I am hopefully going to draw, which was the initial point from the beginning.
That said, I also must confess I really like all of the management of the site Likström.se and I have a lot of trust in daethorian (as daethorian is the one I have spoken the most to) and I feel privileged to be able to talk to them all and aid them in finding site bugs and creating art for them. They are exactly what I need right now.
Over and out.
Tuesday, September 1
Appreciation..!
Today I worked on some new design features for my favorite community, and it was approved and will be used in the new design..! I am very joyful right now; I have that warm feeling inside. I rarely make things that people give me credit for in a real sense; like in this where my creations will be used for real in something thousands of people will see. Not necessarily care about or notice, but still! It will be there for their convenience!
I am taking all of this to heart, in the midst of my low self confidence. I have not felt this good about my drawing abilities since I was exchanging comics with Jixi.
My next project is creating comic characters from the people running the site, which is not the easiest task, but oh so fun ^^
Still working on drawn by night though, so that project is not abandoned.
*off drawing all night*
Wheeee!
I am taking all of this to heart, in the midst of my low self confidence. I have not felt this good about my drawing abilities since I was exchanging comics with Jixi.
My next project is creating comic characters from the people running the site, which is not the easiest task, but oh so fun ^^
Still working on drawn by night though, so that project is not abandoned.
*off drawing all night*
Wheeee!
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