My relation with food really isn't very good. I either over eat or eat way too little. I also exercise way too little, so now that I'm struggling to put on weight, I'm just gaining water and fat weight because my muscle still stay dormant. That is not good. I'll just become too heavy for my strength which will lead to a bigger inability to move and which will make me gain more fat... and so on until I'm an overweight fat blob. I want to gain weight in muscles, mainly and namely on my tummy, back and arms. The legs gain muscle the easiest of all my body, mostly because that's the only body part I use regularly.
My arms actually looks a little bigger nowadays, I've been carrying home more shopping bags. But stretching is my main target right now. I'm blushing just thinking about how stiff I am. I can spread my legs quite well, but that's pretty much it.
Today I've begun counting calories, and thought about maybe I should make a website about all my food issues, to keep everything in one place. Also it's a good way of training on making websites. Practising webdesign, yay!
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Wednesday, June 2
Monday, March 29
The poor life of an Artist
The bills are paid and I am pleasantly surprised to have more money left than I expected - which is that there IS money left. I was fearing not being able to pay one of the bills, but I did and have a small amount left. I doubt I will be able to make it on those these two weeks until the next payment, but luckily I'm not alone! I have my Foxy to help out. If the money would run out, he has some money too. It is not much, but we aren't gonna eat like kings and horses at the same time. Besides, I get my next payment in two weeks so it should be fine. After that there shouldn't be any money problem what so ever though I probably will have to refill the canned foods, dried foods and grains. But that's fine; it's not like I am in dire need to buy anything else.
The only thing I want is a rice boiler. *dreams away*
I wish I had more money to spend on art, but it seems like I don't. A new computer would be lovely but... Well... money.
I met up with a friend yesterday and I showed him around Uddevalla and brought him to the museum, showed him the baby chicks there. Yes, they have real living Easter chicks there. He bought us (him, me and Foxy) food (Tacos, whee!) so I am really thankful for that; it helped us out a lot. Especially that there were leftover; food for another day, YAY! I have the best of friend while they decide to hang around.
Cheers.
The only thing I want is a rice boiler. *dreams away*
I wish I had more money to spend on art, but it seems like I don't. A new computer would be lovely but... Well... money.
I met up with a friend yesterday and I showed him around Uddevalla and brought him to the museum, showed him the baby chicks there. Yes, they have real living Easter chicks there. He bought us (him, me and Foxy) food (Tacos, whee!) so I am really thankful for that; it helped us out a lot. Especially that there were leftover; food for another day, YAY! I have the best of friend while they decide to hang around.
Cheers.
Monday, February 15
Laxabon Prt. 2
This is the second part of my too much information story. If you're still squeamish, don't read.
[Gruesomeness starts here]
19:02 1st glass of second round downed
Lukewarm it isn't too tasty. Not only is pretty much anything not very tasty lukewarm, geranium flower tasting water is - as you can imagine - much worse. It's like you have them in a vase, then put it in the sun a sunny summer day and then remove the flower and serve. Bleh! Thank heavens for the sweets!
I forgot in my first calculations that I would keep on squishing out stuff for one or two hours after I stop drinking the laxative. This means that I won't be done by 21 as I thought, instead I will be done closer to 23. Yay... I am going to reward myself with a nice shower and pretend this didn't happen before I go to bed, ensured that I am no longer effected by the stuff. I can't shower for too long though since I have to get up around 6 am.
19:12 2nd glass of second round downed
It has cooled down a little now and tastes slightly better... But it still is bad. Not disgusting, just bad. I have an even stream om small amounts of water coming out now. Sometimes I don't know if I'm pooping or peeing, sometimes I do both.
And my legs are numbing away. It's still painful though.
19:23 3rd glass of second round downed
I have changed my approach this time; instead of pulling down on the amount, I fill the glass as much as I can without spilling it when I move it. With that method I only have 2 glasses left, on the first liter. Then we have the second one... Bring it on! This time I am feeling the results already, which is promising in the sense that maybe I get off the hook earlier than expected. Not getting my hopes up though.
19:33 4th glass of second round downed
Oooh, tummy didn't like that! Maybe I should prolong the distance in between the doses? hurr... tummy not glad. Not glad at all.
19:44 5th glass of second round downed
It's getting more even with the let outs too. It's just poring right through. The last liter is prepared and I'll begin the first glass with the next glass. Feels refreshing to only have this last liter.
This is the first time I have drunk this much in a row. My butt is starting to get angry. Probably didn't have enough lotion on it. It's a bit late to reapply now since I am kinda busy...
19:55 6th glass of second round downed
Geh..! This one is warm too! Bleh. I am never gonna go close to those flowers ever again! Good thing I am not living with my mother; it's her favorite flower. Maybe this is a redemption for my sin of killing my own flowers? It's not like I mean to, but it's hard to keep them alive when 1. cats flipping them over and 2. I'm not at home. I should go get some cactus again.
20:06 7th glass of second round downed
Well, it's going down... halfway done now, more or less at least. I am not that happy. I long for my shower ant try to pass time at DeviantART.
20:18 8th glass of second round downed
Heh, forgot the time there a little. Tummy is not complaining, but my butt is; don't want to sit here any more. One glass left, maybe a half one after that. Then this shit is DONE! *can't wait*
It's drawing near! I am almost a bit excited to get the next one that will be the almost last one!
20:28 9th glass of second round downed
It's only a liiittle left in there now. I'll take it in another 10 min. Wooohoo!!! So tired of this shit!
20:38 10th glass of second round downed, LAST ONE!
Although it was barely half a glass, I'm done! Now I just to let it go through.
I suddenly realized I have been worrying about honey in the tea, but the sweets I am eating have cream in them! That might not be too good. I am going to be mad if it gets ruined because of that, especially since I could have done it without them!
Oh well... I'm sucking the last one right now. I will have to settle with that.
Well... I won't post much more in here now, unless something comes up, so...
G'night ya'll!
[Gruesomeness starts here]
19:02 1st glass of second round downed
Lukewarm it isn't too tasty. Not only is pretty much anything not very tasty lukewarm, geranium flower tasting water is - as you can imagine - much worse. It's like you have them in a vase, then put it in the sun a sunny summer day and then remove the flower and serve. Bleh! Thank heavens for the sweets!
I forgot in my first calculations that I would keep on squishing out stuff for one or two hours after I stop drinking the laxative. This means that I won't be done by 21 as I thought, instead I will be done closer to 23. Yay... I am going to reward myself with a nice shower and pretend this didn't happen before I go to bed, ensured that I am no longer effected by the stuff. I can't shower for too long though since I have to get up around 6 am.
19:12 2nd glass of second round downed
It has cooled down a little now and tastes slightly better... But it still is bad. Not disgusting, just bad. I have an even stream om small amounts of water coming out now. Sometimes I don't know if I'm pooping or peeing, sometimes I do both.
And my legs are numbing away. It's still painful though.
19:23 3rd glass of second round downed
I have changed my approach this time; instead of pulling down on the amount, I fill the glass as much as I can without spilling it when I move it. With that method I only have 2 glasses left, on the first liter. Then we have the second one... Bring it on! This time I am feeling the results already, which is promising in the sense that maybe I get off the hook earlier than expected. Not getting my hopes up though.
19:33 4th glass of second round downed
Oooh, tummy didn't like that! Maybe I should prolong the distance in between the doses? hurr... tummy not glad. Not glad at all.
19:44 5th glass of second round downed
It's getting more even with the let outs too. It's just poring right through. The last liter is prepared and I'll begin the first glass with the next glass. Feels refreshing to only have this last liter.
This is the first time I have drunk this much in a row. My butt is starting to get angry. Probably didn't have enough lotion on it. It's a bit late to reapply now since I am kinda busy...
19:55 6th glass of second round downed
Geh..! This one is warm too! Bleh. I am never gonna go close to those flowers ever again! Good thing I am not living with my mother; it's her favorite flower. Maybe this is a redemption for my sin of killing my own flowers? It's not like I mean to, but it's hard to keep them alive when 1. cats flipping them over and 2. I'm not at home. I should go get some cactus again.
20:06 7th glass of second round downed
Well, it's going down... halfway done now, more or less at least. I am not that happy. I long for my shower ant try to pass time at DeviantART.
20:18 8th glass of second round downed
Heh, forgot the time there a little. Tummy is not complaining, but my butt is; don't want to sit here any more. One glass left, maybe a half one after that. Then this shit is DONE! *can't wait*
It's drawing near! I am almost a bit excited to get the next one that will be the almost last one!
20:28 9th glass of second round downed
It's only a liiittle left in there now. I'll take it in another 10 min. Wooohoo!!! So tired of this shit!
20:38 10th glass of second round downed, LAST ONE!
Although it was barely half a glass, I'm done! Now I just to let it go through.
I suddenly realized I have been worrying about honey in the tea, but the sweets I am eating have cream in them! That might not be too good. I am going to be mad if it gets ruined because of that, especially since I could have done it without them!
Oh well... I'm sucking the last one right now. I will have to settle with that.
Well... I won't post much more in here now, unless something comes up, so...
G'night ya'll!
Sunday, February 14
Pharmaceutical trip
I had to go to the mall today to pick up some medication for my preparation for the hospital visit on tuesday. They have buses that goes every half an hour there straight from my bus stop, very handy. So I got on the bus over there and did my business fairly quickly. I went a quickie in to one of the big supermarkets and bought some tasty things to bring with me home. I missed the bus home by 2 min. Fine, next one is in 38 min. So I had a sausage and some soda, looked around in the stores, tried to overcome my disgust for the H&M store to check out a belt I actually thought was kinda nice, for decoration. Then I checked the time and went over to the bus. I ran into a friend of mine and exchanged a few words. I missed the bus with 2 min AGAIN. Tired of waiting I went on another bus that goes downtown before going home and wondered why I didn't take that one straight away, since the same kind of bus was waiting straight after the first bus I missed.
I do not like buses. I do not like anything you have to catch a time to and if you don't you're doomed. I'm not doomed taking these buses living in a city and all, but where I used to live it was more or less "If you miss this bus you will have to wait until tomorrow". Really annoying since the bus stop I used was hidden so you had to stand and wait for the bus out on the road or they'd pass by you not even looking because it isn't the most run down stop if you say so. And I'm not kidding; in summer there were only 2 buses a day; one away and one home. One each way.
So back to present; I am ready now! I'm gonna live on fluids until monday morning just to be sure everything goes fine. So I'm gonna have to go shop for a fluid drink diet tomorrow. Also I need to check up how I am gonna get there and how much it's gonna cost to bring Foxy along. I'm mire than likely going to be drugged once there since the examination is going to be very painful. Just the light version hurt so much I had to scream and cry. So going alone is not a good idea.
I hope this is going to tell what's wrong with my health. If they don't find anything... Then they will have to drive me to the psychiatric ward I'm afraid because I can't take the pressure of this mysterious illness. And those bastards does not even want to file me as ill in the official papers either. If I could work I would. Actually I want to work but I can't. I can't even go to school and study. I can barely go and shop by myself. And at any given time I can have a blood pressure fall and have to be lead/carried home.
Well.. enough misery for now.
G'night all.
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