Still going... on?

living off of take out, I have been quite energetic for being me lately (=haven't been feeling as shitty as normally) it may or may not have something to do with the examinations I have had and the fact that the doctors know that I am bleeding from somewhere inside of me, and have been for many years. My recent nausea has most likely been caused by the low blood pressure and the combination with the anaemia.

I find it funny how the doctor, who found me slightly depressed and wanted me to see their psychiatrist, all of a sudden after seeing my test results and did the examination of my place where the sun don't shine doesn't think I need to see him any more, and was very thorough with telling me that I am ill and MUST NOT cancel any appointments from here on, as the case apparently is that when you can see anaemia in the blood samples, then it has gone very far, and she told me normally a person measures iron in between 10-15, and I had 5. And to top it up, she believes that my gut is filled with small inflammation that bleeds. So they are going to put wires in me through both ends, yippie.

But, at least they are taking me serious and aren't going on about how I am just a little negative and depressed because I am unemployed (works fine with that I was ill through out my school time, yet I got recommended to start studying again, cause I will have much more energy once I start studying again, which almost killed me a year ago...) and that I should write "I think I can, I know I can" on a paper every day. Yeah, I am still fired up about the doctor at the emergency room that told me that. I got so humiliated I started to cry. Really embarrassing when the nurse came back in for some additional blood samples right after.

But WHAT EVER!
I am doing kinda ok on the drawing front. I have gotten some commissions and the purchasers were happy with the results. That makes my days at least ^^

Cheers!

It survived!

Woohoo!!! My tablet survived! as a tribute to that... I made a pic with the pen tool :(

No but to be more serious; I made my first commission today. I earned 30k in guild wars money. Very generous I must say! :D I had a hell with the head piece though, but I got it in a ok manner at least. My purchaser was happy at least ^^

Now I have two more to do ^^

My head is like porridge right now, maybe I should eat something..?

Oh well, take care!

Just my Luck

Well, there might not be any more pics from me for a while; the tablet fell into the floor when we were refurnishing. I am feeling a great loss. I am trying to load the batteries used in it to see if that is the problem, if it is then I'm lucky.

It didn't fall far, but still half a meter.

What a lovely day.

G'night

Still Alive

Portal references, wheeee!

I caved in and got me a facebook account to keep in touch with my family. But I am not selling my images to facebook >_< I just got an account to keep in touch with family, nothing else. I strongly dislike facebook, but it's not like everyone in my family has msn sadly.

And what is up with MSN FORCING you to update to that horrible newer version? Someone should do something gruesome to MSN for that. Someone, not me.

I went shopping yesterday, and I just kept realizing that what I can eat lately is basically just sallad, tea and a very modest amount of treats. In order to start checking my food intake (for the sake of my health) I am going to start a food diary, where I also note how I felt after eating what I ate. I am not an anorectic, but the small amount I have been able to put into myself lately is so modest I am feeling how I wither away.

I appreciate if someone has any good recipe on easy to process but high nutritional values, I would love to receive them in the comments.

*sigh* I want to be healthy now. I long sooo much to swim, and move about. Would be awesome to go skiing some day too. I miss moving around so horribly much! I am really miserable, not even being able to walk down to the store down town. ;_;

As a counter measure to being immobilized and pitiful, I have started a project in taking commissions. It gives me something to do and makes me feel less worthless and unproductive. I can understand why people get depressed when unemployed, I am not though, waaay to busy trying to make use of myself.

For some reason, I have started to almost completely avoid lactose. I even went as far as to buy the special ice-cream for lactose intolerant. Well, I find that brand very tasty (tofuline) especially the chocolate one, but they didn't have it when we were shopping so I bought a multi-flavoured one from the same brand.

This is kinda silly though since I am not lactose intolerant and it makes no difference what so ever. But I heard that infectious tummies could temporally be sensitive to lactose, so I am taking the safe before the unsafe.

Well... I guess I have other things to do.
G'night.